Remembering the dream

I just woke up a few minutes ago, opening my eyes to hunger and thirst as the song Manila was playing in loop inside my head. What was interesting was my dream. There, was a music video and a very wonderful song comparable to the melodies of the band Silent Sanctuary. The song was in Tagalog, and there were three characters in the music video. At first it was in a cartoon format, then eventually, as the music video progresses that the characters became real life actors and actresses, and I was there in the set, watching how the music video was being made.

The story was about a girl trying to win a boy's heart. Both characters were students and one guy, being an extra in some scenes. The guy hates the girl because of her attention grabbing and desperate moves to win his attention and affection. At first, in the cartoon part, the boy was playing a sport and the girl was cheering for him. Then a scene came where the girl was hiding from behind a huge trash bin trying to stalk her crush. The characters were drawn in a very cutesy-fartsy way,not anime-like, they were little with fat body parts and big heads. The video goes on and it transitioned to real life actors. In the end, the girl and the boy were stuck under an umbrella in a downpour and they confessed their affection for each other, and they kissed. The "extra" guy was the one who was somewhat pulling the curtains leading to the end of the music video. So I was there all the time, from shooting the video until the final review. The irony of it all was that my friend is the one who plays the guy being stalked by the desperate girl, and he's gay. Hmm...

The scenes were like ripped from a very colorful Japanese school girl and school boy style but was set in some colorful places in Metro Manila. The singer was a guy. I just cannot remember what song it was because it does not exist in real life, if I can only remember, just even the tune of it, I can perhaps write down the lyrics.

Now back to bed and perhaps I will be able to watch that video again and remember what song that is or how it goes.

Death Cab for Cutie - Grapevine Fires

"Grapevine Fires"

When the wind picked up the fire spread
And the grapevines seemed left for dead.
And the northern sky, like the end of day,
The end of days.

A wake up call to a rented room
Sounded like an alarm of impending doom.
To warn us it's only a matter of time.
Before we all burn

We bought some wine and some papercups
Near your daughter's school when we picked her up
And drove to a cemetery on a hill
On a hill.

And we watched the plumes paint the sky gray
And she laughed and danced through the field of graves
There I knew it would be alright
That everything would be alright,
Would be alright
Would be alright
Would be alright...

And the news reports on the radio
Said it was getting worse
As the ocean air fanned the flame.
But I couldn't think of anywhere I would have rather been
To watch it all burn away.
To burn away.

The firemen worked in double shifts,
With prayers for rain on their lips
And they knew it was only a matter of time.

Shooting Star

by Teeth


Are you happy you're a shooting star?
Able to absorb so many wishes that we made

Are you happy you're a shooting star?
Able to give wonder to a galaxy of eternal mystery

Inside my mind
I'm waiting for you
Inside my mind
I'm searching and waiting
for you

And maybe I'm lucky to have seen you tonight
Cos I needed something I have always dreamed about
It doesn't matter if I can't go through
I just want my eye inside this tunnel to heaven

And I wish...

Inside my mind
I'm waiting for you
Inside my mind
I'm searching and waiting
for you

Are you happy you're a shooting star?

High and low
Find some snow
I need to know from you

Lyin' low
I have to grow
I need to know from you

Shooting star...

Are you happy?
Shooting star

Are you happy?

If I ain't got you...

*Maroon 5 version*

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

"When someone's wish comes true"

Dareka No Negai Ga Kanau Koro
(Translated lyrics)

I've lost something important because of small things
The cold ring showed its glimmer to me
I said, "All I need is today," but that wasn't the case
The door to you vanished without a sound

The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But still, I want you to stay, and I always did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
That way the door won't make a sound

I wanted to become the only one who can heal you, who is needed by everyone,
and I've endured it a little too much

To wish for own happiness is not selfish, right?
If that's so, I want to hold you as tight as I can
When my tears dry up, she'll be crying
That way, the ground under us won't dry up

The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But you never hold me back, you never did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
Everyone's wishes can't be granted at once

As the small earth rotates, I learn to become more kind
I want to embrace you once more, as soft as I can.

"All is full of love"

Sometimes, we just need to open ourselves to feel the love that is given to us.

*****

You'll be given love
You'll be taken care of
You'll be given love
You have to trust it

Maybe not from the sources
You have poured yours
Maybe not from the directions
You are staring at

Twist your head around
It's all around you
All is full of love
All around you

All is full of love
You just ain't receiving
All is full of love
Your phone is off the hook
All is full of love
Your doors are all shut
All is full of love!

All is full of love...

"Salita"

"Kazamidori (Weathervane)"

*Translated lyrics

WEATHERVANE

I wonder if it’s because I was born in the spring
When seeds appear to be flying, soon I’ll want to go far away
To a place I haven’t seen yet

A weathervane left up to fate by the wind
A compass that keeps pointing out a destination
I can take whatever I want, I can leave whatever I want
The morning of a new journey

While I’m afraid of change, I also don’t want to stay here
A quiet awakening that looks the same as always

You who said goodbye and I squeezed your back
I who couldn’t say we’d see each other again
Overlapping roads will again be split into two
The morning of a beginning

Though I don’t want to be all alone, that doesn’t mean I must go alone
Even with loneliness stopping my feet, I can’t go home yet
Crossing the ocean together with the wind, I’ll walk on guided by the sunrise
Because what’s waiting for me is definitely there,
after so many meetings and partings,
I have to go keep the promise I made myself when I was born

Until I can touch with these hands, with these eyes that don’t understand even if I listen to someone,
the treasures encased throughout the world,
taking a breath as deep as a forest, I’ll go to sleep listening to the sounds of the stars
To someday set down roots that alight upon the ground
That is the place I’m going home to

"With or Without you"

"Boulevard of Broken Dreams"

"Lost"

A song for the longing and lonely. I am.

"In My Place" - Coldplay

"Huling Araw"

For those in pain who are screaming in silence

I just read a blog that I felt so sad for the owner. So I thought to post a song full of angst and pain. The song is so fitting for most of us.

@Inmyhead, this is for you and for all of us, who are so sick!

"I'm So Sick"
- FLYLEAF

I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now

Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick

"So I thought"

"So I Thought"
- FLYLEAF

All your twisted thoughts free flow
To everlasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because
so long I was
So in love with you
So I thought

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
The times were right
But I couldn't talk about it

On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume
Myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods
You learn too much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies
About the times

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
The times were right
But I couldn't talk about it

The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it
The times were right
But I couldn't talk about it

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it

Just maybe, we might see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Something there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Something there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Something there in between

Just maybe, we might see
Jesus, there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus, there in between

Clinically Dead for 16 hours

Most of us has been clinically dead for several hours (figuratively speaking), specially the first few hours that we knew we are HIV positive.

This is one song that we can relate to... From diagnosis, confirmation or heartache, or perhaps... whatever.

Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

To everyone out there, please watch the video of one of my favorite bands, Underoath. The lyrics are truly inspiring and touching.

This goes out to all the sick(in all sense of the word) people out there, to the believers and non-believers, to the living and dying, to the lost and searching, to the positives and negatives, to all.

Read the lyrics.

Final Distance

by Utada Hikaru

Everyone has a final distance.