Hear it beating. Because right now, blood spurts out through its wounded body as it beats for me. I will not let anyone see it at all. I will not let anyone hurt it anymore.
Written on: 11/03/09 01:34 PM
Posted on Facebook: Sunday, January 10, 2010 at 9:34am
Friday, May 20, 2011
In my Head
My mind is like JPOP and the wind. JPOP because sometimes I cannot understand what my mind says anymore but my heart beats to the sound it makes. Wind, because it's unpredictable, sometimes warm and sometimes cold. Sometimes I wish I have a switch to turn off my seemingly complicated mind. Sometimes I want to drill it open and pull my brain out.
Written on: 11/03/09 01:21 PM
Posted on Facebook: Sunday, January 10, 2010 at 9:33am
Written on: 11/03/09 01:21 PM
Posted on Facebook: Sunday, January 10, 2010 at 9:33am
I hate myself today. I just want to drill my head.
I don't want to be fuckin' sad anymore. But here I am typing erratically to get the fucking thoughts out of my my head. I am having a bad episode. Memories of a not so distant past haunts me. It's not good, nor happy... the memories are. Well, yes, they are happy, but I miss them... that makes it so bad and ugly. I just feel like crying right now. I just want to break down on my first day back to work. This ain't good. What a timing to start the work week. I haven't slept yet since I woke up at 6AM, I work at night, fuck.. I want to sleep. I want to get this images out of my head. Why am do I have such hang-ups. Why cannot I just get rid of these issues. FUCK YOU! You insensitive person. FUCK ME for being a shit.
Written on: 11/03/09 01:11 PM
Posted on Facebook: Sunday, January 10, 2010 at 9:32am
Written on: 11/03/09 01:11 PM
Posted on Facebook: Sunday, January 10, 2010 at 9:32am
Thursday, May 19, 2011
My TOP 25 Most Played songs in iTunes (2009)
New Perspective - Panic at the disco
Think of You - Taj Jackson
For The Record - Mariah Carey
Kazamidori - Maaya Sakamoto
Beautiful World - Utada Hikaru
What A Catch, Donnie - Fall Out Boy
HEART STATION - Utada Hikaru
kazami-dori - Depapepe
Sweet And Low - Augustana
Y.O.U. - Avant
Doing Too Much -
Bullets - Augustana
On And On - Utada
Collide - Howie Day
Apple And Cinnamon - Utada Hikaru
Light up the Sky - Yellowcard
This One (Crying Like A Child) - Utada Hikaru
Anywhere But Here - Mayday Parade
melt away - Mariah Carey
sugar we're going down - Fall Out Boy
Smash Into You - Beyoncé
Movin' On - Elliott Yamin
Make You Feel My Love - Adele
Go On Girl - Ne-Yo
More than a love song - Augustana
Posted on Facebook: Monday, October 26, 2009 at 12:59pm
P.S. Of course I have posted something like this after this one, posted January 24, 2011. The top played songs changed again, check them here.
Think of You - Taj Jackson
For The Record - Mariah Carey
Kazamidori - Maaya Sakamoto
Beautiful World - Utada Hikaru
What A Catch, Donnie - Fall Out Boy
HEART STATION - Utada Hikaru
kazami-dori - Depapepe
Sweet And Low - Augustana
Y.O.U. - Avant
Doing Too Much -
Bullets - Augustana
On And On - Utada
Collide - Howie Day
Apple And Cinnamon - Utada Hikaru
Light up the Sky - Yellowcard
This One (Crying Like A Child) - Utada Hikaru
Anywhere But Here - Mayday Parade
melt away - Mariah Carey
sugar we're going down - Fall Out Boy
Smash Into You - Beyoncé
Movin' On - Elliott Yamin
Make You Feel My Love - Adele
Go On Girl - Ne-Yo
More than a love song - Augustana
Posted on Facebook: Monday, October 26, 2009 at 12:59pm
P.S. Of course I have posted something like this after this one, posted January 24, 2011. The top played songs changed again, check them here.
10 songs and cigarette sticks
Ten songs I chose to listen to
Ten songs to ease the distance of two
Longing for something I may not have
My heart bleeds and is broken in half
Cigarette sticks I need as a breathe
To carry on this pain I have underneath
This sad and dark journey I have to undertake
Hopefully will end soon before I break
Cigarette sticks and these songs
Help me see and undo all these wrongs
Cigarette sticks and these songs
Help me pass this week fast and show me where one belongs
1.) "Whatever it takes" - Lifehouse
2.) "The trouble with me" - Skin
3.) "Lost" - Skin
4.) "Burnt like you" - Skin
5.) "It's not over" - Secondhand Serenade
6.)"Your call" - Secondhand Serenade
7.)"Stay close, don't go" - Secondhand Serenade
8.) "Apple and cinnamon" - Utada
9.)"Heart Station" - Utada
10.) "Stay" - Lisa Loeb
...and a hell lot of cigarettes to help me pass by the coming week.
Posted on Facebook: Monday, August 10, 2009 at 8:47am
Ten songs to ease the distance of two
Longing for something I may not have
My heart bleeds and is broken in half
Cigarette sticks I need as a breathe
To carry on this pain I have underneath
This sad and dark journey I have to undertake
Hopefully will end soon before I break
Cigarette sticks and these songs
Help me see and undo all these wrongs
Cigarette sticks and these songs
Help me pass this week fast and show me where one belongs
1.) "Whatever it takes" - Lifehouse
2.) "The trouble with me" - Skin
3.) "Lost" - Skin
4.) "Burnt like you" - Skin
5.) "It's not over" - Secondhand Serenade
6.)"Your call" - Secondhand Serenade
7.)"Stay close, don't go" - Secondhand Serenade
8.) "Apple and cinnamon" - Utada
9.)"Heart Station" - Utada
10.) "Stay" - Lisa Loeb
...and a hell lot of cigarettes to help me pass by the coming week.
Posted on Facebook: Monday, August 10, 2009 at 8:47am
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
2046, a movie review
This is the second time I have watched this movie since I was in college. It was quite odd at first and I have to watch it again this time to finally get what this movie is all about.
I just finished watching the movie, so I thought to write about it before I watch the next movie on my playlist, supposedly Pan's Labyrinth, but I think I want to watch Dancer in the Dark instead. It's an original VCD copy... So I am yet to find out what's the quality going to be like when played on my TV. I had problems in the past playing VCD's on my TV. They are either blurry or the screen won't entirely fit the monitor. Anyway, back to the movie...
There is one very noticeable aspect on how Wong Kar Wai (director) focuses on the scenes. The subject on most scenes are not centered at all, he has either half of the screen filled with blank and dark spaces or some background of sort. The subjects are either at the far right or far left of the screen... He does this on very emotional scenes. probably to let the audience focus more on the emotions and on the actor rather than on the vivid background or setting. The story is all about love, finding it, ignoring, and breaking it. The protagonist or the main character who is a writer, was sometimes also the antagonist... Well, towards one particular character anyway, who was so crazy inlove with him, but he just simply can't fall inlove for her. Wherein, comes some additional characters (more women) into the story. All of whom he has feelings for, but they never did for him. The story is full of heartaches. It also shows how broken a seemingly strong person can be when love comes in to his life. The character escapes from his reality into the novel he is writing, involuntary incorporating the people in his real life to his novel.
The movie is visually exhilarating, with some photography techniques used that I don't know what they are called of. The plot is depressing, and the actors are good and well known, good looking and skinny. Makes me want to be more skinny. The movie might be dragging for people who wants a lot of sex, action, or some ubber romantic scenes... It has sex, but no romance, no action. It is not a chick flick either. But if you want visuals, good cinematography, a depressing plot, a creative setting and you want to wonder so many "whats" along the movie... Then you will love this one. As I watched along, I couldn't help myself but to continuously wonder what were the characters thinking.... But I was able to feel the emotions all throughout the movie.
That's all. Off to my next movie... Fight Club. I've taken Pans Labyrinth of my list.
Fight Club... One of my favorite movies I will never get tired of watching... If you like politics, communism, and if you have angst against the world... You better watch this film. It has a few lessons to learn about, something to think after watching it.
Posted on Facebook: Monday, July 27, 2009 at 11:27pm
I just finished watching the movie, so I thought to write about it before I watch the next movie on my playlist, supposedly Pan's Labyrinth, but I think I want to watch Dancer in the Dark instead. It's an original VCD copy... So I am yet to find out what's the quality going to be like when played on my TV. I had problems in the past playing VCD's on my TV. They are either blurry or the screen won't entirely fit the monitor. Anyway, back to the movie...
There is one very noticeable aspect on how Wong Kar Wai (director) focuses on the scenes. The subject on most scenes are not centered at all, he has either half of the screen filled with blank and dark spaces or some background of sort. The subjects are either at the far right or far left of the screen... He does this on very emotional scenes. probably to let the audience focus more on the emotions and on the actor rather than on the vivid background or setting. The story is all about love, finding it, ignoring, and breaking it. The protagonist or the main character who is a writer, was sometimes also the antagonist... Well, towards one particular character anyway, who was so crazy inlove with him, but he just simply can't fall inlove for her. Wherein, comes some additional characters (more women) into the story. All of whom he has feelings for, but they never did for him. The story is full of heartaches. It also shows how broken a seemingly strong person can be when love comes in to his life. The character escapes from his reality into the novel he is writing, involuntary incorporating the people in his real life to his novel.
The movie is visually exhilarating, with some photography techniques used that I don't know what they are called of. The plot is depressing, and the actors are good and well known, good looking and skinny. Makes me want to be more skinny. The movie might be dragging for people who wants a lot of sex, action, or some ubber romantic scenes... It has sex, but no romance, no action. It is not a chick flick either. But if you want visuals, good cinematography, a depressing plot, a creative setting and you want to wonder so many "whats" along the movie... Then you will love this one. As I watched along, I couldn't help myself but to continuously wonder what were the characters thinking.... But I was able to feel the emotions all throughout the movie.
That's all. Off to my next movie... Fight Club. I've taken Pans Labyrinth of my list.
Fight Club... One of my favorite movies I will never get tired of watching... If you like politics, communism, and if you have angst against the world... You better watch this film. It has a few lessons to learn about, something to think after watching it.
Posted on Facebook: Monday, July 27, 2009 at 11:27pm
That piercing darkness
I am just staying strong, swimming in this cold sea of melancholy
Trying to be stay afloat, despite of feeling lonely
Someday the light will come my way
And from this darkness I will go away
Towards that final distance
That will give purpose to my existence
Or am I already traveling
As I pass, unraveling
Lessons need to be seen and learned
But as I go farther
I just simply...
Burn.
Posted on Facebook: Sunday, July 26, 2009 at 4:00pm
Trying to be stay afloat, despite of feeling lonely
Someday the light will come my way
And from this darkness I will go away
Towards that final distance
That will give purpose to my existence
Or am I already traveling
As I pass, unraveling
Lessons need to be seen and learned
But as I go farther
I just simply...
Burn.
Posted on Facebook: Sunday, July 26, 2009 at 4:00pm
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